Abstract:
During my doctoral research journey, I focused on what I saw as the problematic paradox of subjectivity and objectivity in the process of formal, academic inquiry. Somehow, I could not divorce the intellectual exploration of the issues raised - with how subjectivity and objectivity questions related to my deeper life perspectives and way of experiencing the world. As I continued to study my own perspectives and the ideas of others in the academic literature, I saw that the division between subjectivity and objectivity were extensions of two distinct ways of looking and perceiving 'reality'. One was based on 'looking into the self' and the other looked 'into the world'.
It was at an important research moment of 'looking into the world' that I discovered Jerome Bruner's (1986) perception that there are two separated cognitive modes - a paradigmatic and a narrative 'way of construing reality'. I resonated with this idea and in an epiphanic and transformative moment, made a meaningful connection to the two modes and recognized them as correlating with my particular paradoxical 'objective' and 'subjective' ways of perceiving.
This paper is a narrative self-study that takes the form of storied reflections of perspectives that occurred during my doctoral research journey and also subsequently developing viewpoints. I use an 'arts-based' approach advocated by Barone and Eisner (1997) as I seek the potentially different and valuable kinds of narrative understanding and meanings that are contrasted with those generated by paradigmatic analysis (Barone, 2000; Kilbourne, 2001; Polkinghorne, 1988). The writing seeks to promote narrative methods whilst illuminating my personal academic journey and engagement with the 'spaces' between ways of knowing. I move between third and first person writing in order to highlight and further explore these spaces.
This paper will be presented as part of Symposium, BAG091486 Navigating the complex journey of"becoming"an academic: Insights from six academics at a regional university.
Key Phrase: Higher Education
It was at an important research moment of 'looking into the world' that I discovered Jerome Bruner's (1986) perception that there are two separated cognitive modes - a paradigmatic and a narrative 'way of construing reality'. I resonated with this idea and in an epiphanic and transformative moment, made a meaningful connection to the two modes and recognized them as correlating with my particular paradoxical 'objective' and 'subjective' ways of perceiving.
This paper is a narrative self-study that takes the form of storied reflections of perspectives that occurred during my doctoral research journey and also subsequently developing viewpoints. I use an 'arts-based' approach advocated by Barone and Eisner (1997) as I seek the potentially different and valuable kinds of narrative understanding and meanings that are contrasted with those generated by paradigmatic analysis (Barone, 2000; Kilbourne, 2001; Polkinghorne, 1988). The writing seeks to promote narrative methods whilst illuminating my personal academic journey and engagement with the 'spaces' between ways of knowing. I move between third and first person writing in order to highlight and further explore these spaces.
This paper will be presented as part of Symposium, BAG091486 Navigating the complex journey of"becoming"an academic: Insights from six academics at a regional university.
Key Phrase: Higher Education